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SUN

 

Spike’s POV

My new cage: Xander fucking Harris’ bloody basement.
When I am not tied to a chair; I am trapped by the sun.
Fucking nuts is what I get here, bleeding fucking damn nuts.

But I found myself a prezzie today. Strolled through the house while Harris’ idiot parents were out. Discovered a nice stack of booze. Cheap booze, nevertheless alcohol to make the time pass faster, make it blur and whirl without meaning.

It’s a way to avoid facing things. Alcohol is. Sometimes it’s the only way to face things without breaking apart and crying like some stupid bint. Or so I tell myself. More and more successfully with every drop of the liquid fire, burning down my throat.

By the time I hear the heavy steps of working boots nearing, announcing the whelp’s appearance, I am in the „everything-is-so-fucking-funny-I-will-start-to-bawl-any-moment-now“ state.

Bloody fucking he… llo, gorgeous! Didn’t know the whelp was hiding *that* body from me! I can bloody well *feel* my eyes bugging when I take in the bared torso, the blue dirty jeans riding low on his hips, the t-shirt hanging out of the tool box he carries, making the biceps jump when he pulls it up to place it on the sideboard.

„Spike.“ He greets through gritted teeth. Angry. „Where did you get the bottles?“ He points first to the two empty ones on the floor then to the one in my hand. I watch his pecs flex, working. Bottles? What bottles? Where did you get those abs?

I think I just keep grinning madly at him. It’s not that I could actually say something without making a *slippery* innuendo. And that was not the brightest idea I’d ever had.

Stomping hard on the floor, he comes towards me, his face distorted with rage, the muscles on the tanned torso dancing seductively.

With my mind still on the delicious body, I react on instinct only.
Like a child I pull my bottle behind my back. To do this while sitting on a chair, I *have* to arch my back, thrust my hips forward, square my shoulders.

Grabbing for the bottle, his hand follows mine behind my back, closes around the bottle neck, the other hand supports his weight on the arm of the chair. His face is now so near to mine, less than two inches between our lips.

And now I can feel it:
Through the red button-up and the black t-shirt seeps his heat.
His whole body radiates heat after he’s spent a day working in the sunshine.
Delicious, searing heat.
Nothing like the burning of the cheap booze down my throat.
This is real.
This is as close as I can get to the sun: bathing in the borrowed warmth, enjoying the lingering traces of deadly rays of sunlight secondhand.

I breathe in deeply, scenting what the shining globe did to him.
Smelling sun warmed dirt, sun caused perspiration, sun bleached hair, sun colored skin.
Smelling sunshine.
Pure simple spiritual light.
Cleansing light.
All devouring, all demanding, all causing, all including light.

I open my eyes to glistening dark pools.
„Spike have you…“
„Can I touch you?“ My voice is hoarse, breathless and needy. „Please.“ Whispered.

The anger disappears from his eyes and confusion clouds them.
„Spike?“ So confused.
„Wanna touch you. Can I touch you? Let me touch you…“ I am whining now, I don’t care. I just have to have some of the heat, the light, the sun that clings to him.

„Spike, you’re drunk. You…“ He trails off, when my hand comes up, hovers millimeters over the tanned skin of one of his pecs. He shudders lightly when he feels my coldness chilling his flesh. His nipple rises, begs to be touched. Standing taut and erect the tiny nub covers the missing distance, stretches to my waiting finger tip.

It feels like the littlest hot poker against my digit and he gasps, when finally the small contact is registered by his brain. My finger has to feel like an ice cube to his sun heated flesh.

Third Person’s POV

„Spike…“
„Ssshh.“ Gaze fixed on the finger barely touching the nipple. Xander looks intently at Spike’s face, studying the sharp features, the long lashes.
“Spike…” No annoyance, just the need for an explanation is in his voice.

Long lashes blink as if clearing a picture and blue eyes snap up – Xander draws in a breath sharply, surprised to see tears hovering so close to the surface.
The vampire’s gaze drops again to the taut nipple pressed against the tip of his finger. The only place their bodies are connected.

“Tell me.” A whispered plea.
A slight shake of a blond head.
Xander sways forward a little, pressing into Spike’s touch, as if to nudge him into answering.
Absently Spike’s pale digit starts to play with the hard nub, rubbing it up and down and circling around it.
Up and down and around.
Up and down and around.

He begins to speak without lifting his head, whispering as if talking to himself.
“He took it away from me.” Voice hoarse from underlying pain. Need. Want.
Without thinking Xander slides his hand down the bottle’s neck, covers Spike’s cool fingers with his own. Spike’s hand stops playing with the nipple, lays down flat against the bulging pec. Feeling the coldness seeping into his skin, Xander gives a full body shudder.
“I am cold. Everything is cold.” Spike breathes in deeply, getting control over his wobbly emotions. “Don’t have no-one warming me. Not even the sun.”

A wave of understanding crashes over Xander.
He snakes his arm around Spike without conscious thought.
He only wants to ease the pain.
The coldness.
He is shocked how thin, how breakable the vampire in his grasp feels. He fastens his grip, as if he is afraid, the small man would slip away any moment.
“Don’t wanna be cold anymore. Warm me up? Just for a little while, just for…”
Words fading away when the warm arm around him pulls his body close, chest to chest. Whimpering and sobbing melt to a moan of ultimate pleasure, when searing, unexpected heat fades to enveloping warmth.

In time they both abandon the bottle, Xander to grab the vampire’s bottom and haul him up. Spike’s long muscular legs come up to close around Xander’s waist; his hand grips the collar of the black shirt, ripping it open.
Naked chest to naked chest.
Skin to skin.
Hot to cold.
Melting to comfortable warmth.

Now done its duty, Spike’s hand can tangle in brown hair, trying to force the youth’s face away from his neck.
“Spike, don’t.” Pleading for mercy.
“You feel so good, Xan. So warm, so hot against me…”
“Spike…” Moaning loudly. Not knowing if he wants the vampire to stop or to go on. Feels like he is about to lose control any moment. Like he will take advantage of Spike who only asked to be warmed ~ loved ~ for a while.
“Xan, wanna feel all your warmth. Feel your heat everywhere. On me.”
Thrusting desperately against the hard cock trapped in dirty blue jeans.
“Inside me.” Thrust.
“Please.” Thrust.

Xander’ s POV

“Spike…” throaty whisper against the skin of his neck. He is so cold. Is it normal that he is this cold?
“Please.” He whines again, close to begging. Desperation so heavy in his voice, in his movements. I feel his earlobe against my lips and take it between my teeth. I close my mouth around it and suck it, sharply. It makes Spike gasp, thrusting hard against me. God, just the right pressure, just enough friction to get me harder with every hip roll.
Whenever I pictured Spike with me, I never thought it would be like this. I saw him topping me, teaching and impressing me with skills you get when you are young and beautiful for more than 120 years. But this?

I am nearly overwhelmed by his *need*, it makes all this so much more complicated. He is a fantasy to jerk off to, not a secret crush, damnit.
He tugs my hair harder, wanting me to go on. I rub my nose and mouth against the side of his face, tongue sliding out to explore the sharp cheek bone. More moaning when I lick along that strong jaw bone to his chin. He lets his head fall back a bit and I nibble his chin, biting it playful until…

Until he moves his head again, fusing our lips together. Have I ever thought about kissing Spike, ever tossed off to more than just imagining his cock buried balls deep in my hole? No, but I should have…
No playful licks or bites, just his tongue invading my mouth forcefully, gliding in and against tongue, palate and teeth…
This is not about control; this is just a man one time too often left back, alone and lost.

I carry him over to the bed and bow down, laying him on his back, helping him to get out of the shredded shirt and the button-up. On my knees, his legs still securely wrapped around my waist, I look down at him. He shivers. Anticipation or cold?
Covering him with my body, tongue joining tongue again, hoarse cries and soothing whispers mingle together.

Cool hands glide up and down my back, no nails, just feeling for more of my heat. My head is thrown back by now, Spike is licking and nibbling along my throat, I want him deeper, want him to suck and bite my nipples, but… His hands find the button of my jeans, open it and slide down the zip, freeing my leaking cock. I hold in a breath, waiting for his first touch, equally anticipating and dreading it. So much depends on it… But god, Spike does it just right. Soft, long fingers close around my hard shaft in just the right way. Firm but gentle, promising expertise and sensitivity.
Two strokes up and down the whole length and his hand is gone, leaving me twitching with want.

He unwraps his legs, opens his jeans too, but before I get a good look, his hands are on my hips, tugging on my jeans, tugging to get them off. I smile at him and lean forward, supporting my weight on my hands over his head on the bed so he can push them down. His head shoots up, his mouth closes around my nipple. I gasp totally surprised; I did not expect to get this treatment any more. Cool lips around my areola, sucking the nipple hard, his oh so cool tongue laps over the hard nub roughly. I cry out and moan and lean further into his mouth, wanting more of this sensation. I start, nearly protesting when his mouth leaves my saliva slicked nipple, but he blows cool air over it, causing it to swell even more. I get dizzy when his tongue wanders over to my other nipple; only stopping to lick up the thin layer of sweat between my pecs. His hands are in my half down jeans, holding my ass cheeks in a strong grip, spreading them as if presenting my opening to the room. My hips are thrusting against him, exposed hardness against equally exposed hardness, humping him mindlessly to the sounds of his sucking and lapping on my nipples. Just when I think, I can’t take it anymore, he holds my hips still, not allowing any friction or pressure and bites my nipples almost violently. My back arches and again I cry out, my voice hoarse and throaty. Thankfully, he avoids any movement of my hips or I would have just finished off like this.

He rubs his forehead against my chest like a cat seeking contact, gives me time to calm down a bit.

Slowly I start leaning back until I sit on my heels again, all the way pressing kisses to cool skin and licking the pale body. Forehead, cheeks, upper lip, lower lip, chin, throat, collarbone, nipples, chest, and belly. Finally I am able to get a look from up-close and what I see is making my lips part on their own. I inhale his musky scent; increasing my own need for more. Just when my mouth makes contact with the soft skin of his fat cock head, he grabs me by the hair urgently, pulling me away. A frustrated groan escapes me. “Too hot, too close.” He chokes out, abs rippling seductively under tension.

I get up, sliding his jeans, boots and socks off on my way. While I pull off my own jeans, shoes and socks I look at him, trying to memorize this picture for the rest of my life. His muscled body lying there, feet flat on the bed, legs spread, cock and balls taut, a drop of pre-cum glistening. Wide blue eyes, lips parted, unnecessarily panting.

Waiting for me.

My throat releases a sound, something between whimpering and sighing, before I am back on the bed, covering the shivering body again with mine. I kiss Spike, letting all the attraction and want I feel for him bleed into that soft but urgent mingling of lips and tongues. “Want you.” he murmurs against my chin. “Inside me.”

I think he hasn’t even realized I was searching for the lube under the pillow while I kissed him. Spike moans and stretches his legs even wider, when he hears the cap clack open. He pushes against me and with only one elbow bracing myself I roll on my back, taking him with me, chest to chest still. His leg comes up and he rests his knee on my hip. Now he is wide spread for me, I can easily reach between his muscled cheeks and prepare him for more.

Third Person’s POV

With practiced ease Xander got a huge drop of lube on his fingers. He grabbed Spike by the hair in his neck, pulled him into a kiss. The vampire’s moan was muffled against the youth's mouth when he felt the hot wet fingers slide down his buttocks.
Slowly Xander rubs just the beginning of the cleft, teasing. Spike feels the drop of lube slide down between his cheeks till it wets his opening. The rubs the dark haired man makes get longer until he reaches the puckered flesh and ... Spike’s hips jerk forward, shying away from the unfamiliar *warm* finger there.
"Ssshh..." Xander tries to calm the gasping blond, sucking the soft bottom lip in his mouth.
His finger never leaves the position over the clenched hole, just stays there, and lets Spike get used to the touch.
Only a few seconds go by until Xander feels Spike relax and he starts to caress his goal. His tongue mirrors the movement of his digit; licking circles on Spike’s half closed lips, dipping in between lightly, with every dip a little bit deeper.

Spike moans, stunned by the experience and tenderness Xander shows. He never thought of Xander as a gentle lover, at ease with a man in his bed. He hadn’t dared to hope for it.
A warm hand plays in his hair; warm lips are worshipping his mouth and one warm wet finger tip… oh so gently slides inside him, so slowly, careful not to hurt him.
Moaning, Spike pushes down on the digit, needing more of it inside him. Xander lets him go at his own pace, just giving enough resistance for the blond to work himself completely on it. Xander loves the intimacy of this, watching Spike’s eyelids flutter, when he clenches around the second knuckle, then relaxes and gives way for all of it.

“Want more?” Xander whispers against Spike’s lip, biting the addicting lower lip playfully.
“Morrrrre.” The vampire purrs, sucking Xander’s tongue inside his mouth with force, making clear, how much he *needs* more. Taking the hint, one more of Xander’s fingers joins the first. Whimpering, the blonde squirms higher on the hot body until his nipple is over the warm mouth, which latches onto the hard nub immediately.

After that everything seems to spin out of control, frantically Xander works his finger deeply in Spike’s tight hole. The blond trembles over him, moaning and crying out for more. Forcefully Xander pushes Spike on his back, rolls onto him and makes Spike mewl with the weight pressing down on him. Panting and hectically searching for the lube, finding it, squeezing out too much, smearing it over his hard cock, Spike’s leaking dick, when he gives it some strokes and even more over and in the tight hole, greedily grasping for his by now three fingers. Hard kisses, feverishly clashing tongues and bumping teeth but who cares? Not these two men lost in sensations.
Grunting Spike lifts up his legs, crosses the ankles behind Xander’s back, moving so that Xander’s hard dick rests in between his cleft, the hot tip pressed against his opening. He can’t wait anymore, he has to feel the heat of his partner inside him. NOW.

But Xander slows down everything; even the world seems to hold its breath.

Elbows resting besides Spike’s shoulders, both hands entwined with the blond hair, holding Spike’s head back, making him look in his eyes while he slides inside him inch by inch. Half way sheathed in that incredible tightness Xander stops, takes deep, deep breaths, desperately grasping for control.
“How long?” He gasps out. Hearing Xander’s voice rough like this, the warm breath puffing over his face, the cock head pressing firmly against his prostate, nearly does Spike in. He arches his back, wants so bad to be completely filled by this searing hotness. “Over eighty ye…” Crying out when Xander’s hips jerk forward, Xander’s balls hitting his bottom, finally he has the whole thick cock inside him as deep as it can go and all movement stops.

“Sorrysorry just couldn’t…” “Alrightalrightalright, feels so good…” Spike pants out, lust darkened gazes locked for several moments until… the first light thrust.

Spike groans when he feels the hard length move inside him. Everything feels new. Nothing is like he remembers it. The cock inside him is hot, pulsating and throbbing with blood. He panics when he feels only the head of Xander’s cock inside him and clenches down, hard, desperate to hold the searing hot meat inside him. Xander screams and shoves forward again, deeply embedding his shaft inside the slim blond. “Don’tdon’tdon’tdon’t” he chants and Spike relaxes his ring of muscles, letting the pressure on the thick cock subside.
“God, you’re tight.” He whispers and opens his eyes again to look in Spike’s face. Wide blue eyes stare up in to his, raw emotions laid open. Spike blinks very slowly and then moves his hips.
“Ready for more?” Xander asks with a light grin and Spike crashes his mouth to his.
Taking this as a signal, Xander moves. Pulling his cock out until only the head stays inside. Pushing back until Spike feels filled completely. Long, slow strokes, hitting Spike’s prostate with nearly every deep shove.

They are both moaning, grunting, begging for more and they know they won’t last long. Both are desperate to hold back and to let go at the same time. “Harder!” Spike eventually cries out and Xander increases the speed of his thrust. Not enough, not enough.

Losing his grip on Spike’s hair, Xander leans back and grabs Spike under his knees, spreading him wide open, holding his legs up and bending the blond even more. Just the right angle to truly fuck him hard and fast.

Pounding into Spike without mercy. Getting faster with every shove. Getting deeper than ever before into the clenching tightness. Out of breath and only seconds away from coming he orders Spike to “Work yourself!”. Immediately the blond closes his long fingers around his hard length and starts to pump it furiously.

“Cum for me, baby, cum for me.” Xander grits out, fighting a losing battle of fulfilled lust. And Spike arches his back and howls when white creamy ropes of cum shoot from his cock onto his chest. The look of absolute bliss and the fluttering hole around his straining cock are too much for Xander and he cums. Hard. Hips jerking against Spike’s ass with every wave of his climax. Spike whimpers hoarse “Yeah, yeah.” ’s when he feels Xander’s warm cum spurt against his inner walls.

Long moments pass until the dark haired man lets himself collapse onto the grinning blonde, burying his face in the pale cool neck.

“Mhmm, that’s good. All cool.” He murmurs against the soft skin, sending shivers through Spike’s body. “I’ll just stay here.”

Spike’s hands close around the broader frame and he places tiny kisses against Xander’s ear.
“Still cold?” He hears the youth mumble sleepily and warm lips ghost over the skin on his shoulder.
“No, all good now. Feel all warmed up inside.” Spike answers with a light chuckle, but both of them know that he does not mean the cum or the still embedded cock.

 


RAIN

 

Xander’s POV

There is one thing I hate about being single. It’s waking up alone.
Sleeping alone is no problem. D’uh! You sleep, so most of the times you aren’t aware of being alone. And there are advantages! No one snores or hogs the covers. No one wakes you to have relationship-conversations in the middle of the night. However, when you wake up and feel cold and still tired, your bones hurt and your back is sore… you think even those convos are worth it.

I slowly blink open my eyes and the first thing I see is Spike on the reclining chair. He is asleep, duster thrown over his slim frame, an unhappy expression on his face. Grumpy Spike, that’s all we see these days… My mind comes to a sudden stop and I bolt upright in the bed, panting harshly. Oh my god, I had sex with Spike!

My heart is pounding so loud in my chest the neighbours, without doubt, are able to hear it. Spike, though, seems unfazed by it. I open my mouth as if to say something, maybe to call out to him but all I can manage is a weak, strangled, coughing sound.
The body on the recliner comes alive and turns around, murmuring something I can’t make out but, by the sounds of it, are objections to the disturbing noise I made.
The duster slid down a bit, exposing the narrow waist of the vampire and he shivers. Memories come rushing back at me.

“I am cold. Everything is cold.”

“Don’t wanna be cold anymore. Warm me up? Just for a little while, just for…”

Yeah, just for a little while. I suppress a snort. I get up as silently as I can manage and make to go to the bathroom. I need a shower. I really need a shower. My pubic hair is all sticky because … I fucked Spike. Unbelievable. When I pass the chair Spike sleeps in though, I can’t keep myself from tugging the duster back into place, covering his body with the heavy leather.

I turn the water on a bit hotter than I can actually stand it; and I groan in both pain and pleasure when the searing fluid rushes over my body. Looks like Spike is not the only one needing to be warmed up. I lift up my arms, lay them against the cool tiles from entwined fingers to elbows and let my head drop so my chin nearly rests on my sternum. I like the tension, how it’s building in and under my shoulder blades, while my loins feel so light and relaxed.

I screw my eyes shut and the familiar metallic-blue lights begin to dance behind my eyelids. Metallic-blue that brings back memories: Spike staring at me when I pushed inside him. Involuntarily I moan, my cock stirring in recollection of the cool tightness it was sheathed in only a few hours ago.

I fucked Spike… and it was fantastic.

One of my hands wanders down to the soap dispenser, pumping it a few times. Not for the first time, I realize that the soap has the same colour as cum and my cock twitches wantonly. Smiling to myself, I bring my hand down to it and rub the creamy white mess all over it. Mhmmm, yeah. That feels good.

I rest my forehead against my arm while I stroke my cock to full hardness. In my mind I’m reliving the last night, experiencing again what it felt like to have *Spike* wanting me, to have him spread out and nearly begging for my cock to fill him.

I moan again when I think about how he arched up when I thrust deep into him the first time and I speed up my hand, ending every other stroke with a slide of my thumb over the swollen head.

My brain flings images at me faster and faster, stimulating me with the intensity of the feelings involved with them. Finally the carousel of my inner snapshots comes to a halt on one moment, the moment our lips met and Spike’s tongue so tentatively met mine for the first time. The familiar tingle in my balls starts, crawling up to the head of my cock when I come shuddering and gasping for breath. Damn, I’m so screwed.

Seconds later I’m back to the routine task of washing and cleaning myself, rinsing soap and cum down my body, watching all traces of creamy fluids disappear down the drain.

I shiver while I dry myself and slip into the clothes I laid down on the closed toilet seat. I look in the mirror while I brush my teeth and shave, searching for ..something but it’s only me staring back at me and nothing seems to have changed. Why do I feel different then?

 

Third Person’s POV

As noiselessly as Xander could manage he goes from the bathroom to the kitchen. After opening the fridge's door he stares in it, checking the sparse contents. First thing he notices is that Spike's blood supply is down to one bag. Cow's blood. Xander cringes at the memory. He had gone to the butcher like he always did nowadays and, for a change, he bought the slightly more expensive cow's blood, of which Spike spit half of the first bag in the sink, cussing. "Disgusting shite!"

Xander had been embarrassed, had maybe hoped for some friendlier insults in their bickering, so he had reacted with: "Was all they had, Fangless. Drink or die."

The youth closes the fridge. Will grab something somewhere, he thinks and knows he won't. He fills a glass with water and turns so he can watch Spike. He lifts and starts to sip the cool water, dragging the process out so he can stay a bit longer like this, so he can look at the blond a bit longer. And Spike is nothing like he thought Spike would be in his sleep.

He doesn't look younger or innocent or dead. He looks just like Spike, sleeping Spike. The hair is tousled and the lids are fluttering from the rapid movement of his eyes under them, the throat is working furiously as if Spike tries to swallow something but can't manage it. Xander feels his own throat close up in sympathy. The vamp starts fidgeting, nearly thrashing and groans as if… With a jolt Spike hands come up, protecting his head and his knees snap up to his chest, curling himself in, making himself as little as possible. Wide eyed Xander watches and feels anger bloom inside him for what the Initiative did to this… to Spike.

After that Spike calms down, slips into a dark but seemingly dreamless sleep. Xander's eyes jerk up to the clock and, damn, he's gonna be late if he doesn't get going now, so he turns around to put the glass in the sink and takes the pen and post-its block lurking there. He makes as if to write and stops after "Hey", flings the pad away and stalks out of the house, no look back. Silly, he thinks of himself and then presses the button to "work" in his mind, actively barring away all non-work related thoughts for the next eight or ten hours on the site. He really likes this job and he doesn't want to lose it.

*** *** ***

Spike wakes up in the late afternoon to the unfamiliar but familiar sound of rain rushing down to the ground in a steady stream. He's alone. Good. Good, yes, and the boy's still at work. Shower. Yes, shower will be good.

He stands up and stretches the clumsy muscles, feeling sore from the sleep in the uncomfortable chair. Images of the bed, sharing it with Xander, cuddling into the whelp's warmth and just drowning there, real rest. Safe.

He shakes his head to clear them away, doesn't quite succeed but can concentrate on the task at hand. The water flowing down his body is hot, warming his shell, warming skin and bones and muscles back into sleekness but on the inside he still feels cold. Assaulted by memories of honest caring eyes and gentle fingers he wants to scream, wants them to stop. He regrets that he let go, regrets that he opened himself up for another person just to have a taste and then… nothing anymore.

He gets the last bag of cow's blood out of the fridge and thanks who ever looks out for vampires that it is the last bag and he’ll hopefully get pig again next load. They're both disgusting but cow's blood is just more… disgusting. He snorts to himself. Look how far I have fallen… preferring pig to cow when I should be out there drinking human from the source.

The bag is drained quickly without heating it in the microwave because the smell is even worse than the taste. One fucking bag, Spike frowns, this will not get him through the night. Not even if he didn't have to fight off bloody fledges who think they can take down a master or without the Scoobies' usual patrol. He is so weak and hungry.

Giles is a sadistic bastard. The kids may not know, may not even think about it when not hinted to but Giles… Ex-Watcher Giles, must know how much blood he needed plus or minus a pint or two. Watcher must know that a vamp can suck dry up to four humans a night, and god it was so good to feel completely filled with warm blood, fresh and energizing…
Doesn't need to be human all the time, just has to be enough at least. Giles could do the math and figure it out, could figure out that he should have at least six bags of pig's every day – not one or two – so he wouldn't starve to final death.

 

Xander's Point of View

When I get off of work finally, it starts to rain. So fucking typical.
Couldn't have started earlier - no.. why should I get some time off on a day like this? It's hard enough to get everything right when I am completely concentrated. I wonder what I actually managed to mess up today. At least it's Friday. No work ‘til Monday and I can't remember being that grateful for that fact before.

I stop at ChocShock, a very little café that just opened and as the name says, they have all things chocolately. I love their ice cream. I take way more time today to eat my ice than I do usually but I really don't want to face Spike right now. Yeah, I am hiding out, alright. Who wouldn't.

Spike made pretty clear how he sees things, prefers the crappy barracuda to the crappy bed and human warmth. Just use the Xan-man, sex with evil killers seems to be one of my hidden talents. Of course you can't compare Faith and Spike - coz let's face it, Faith, wince, Spike is more than an adventure - or maybe that's because he is male and I am a bit more happy with an additional dick than with boobs in my bed.

Spike is kinda intense. Haven't felt that connected with someone in a long time and hah, who'd have thought I'd say that about evil, undead, snarky, annoying, gorgeous Spike.

And now? How do I behave around Spike now? Oh hi, Deadboy Jr., I hate you but I'd like to fuck your ass again.. Yeah, that would be sooo - Fuck it. I stand up and make my way home. I just have to wait and see and do what Spike does or the opposite of it if it's gross.

Even before I reach the door I know he has already gone. Sudden sadness sweeps over me when I step in the empty basement, finding the bed still rumpled and the ropes still on the floor near the barracuda. Left behind again..

I bite my lip hard. Don't be silly, idiot. You knew this was just a fuck, was just a new way for the bleached blond to screw with your head - or your dick. Urgh.

I go shower and change into more casual clothes and try not to think about Spike at all but when I open the fridge and find it completely empty - I remember again that I wanted to go grocery and blood shopping yesterday - just before Spike jumped me to make.. casual sex. Fuck. He must be hungry. Two days with nearly no blood. He has to be starving. Oh, and I care why again. Fuck.

Thing is, the fridge holds nothing for me either and I am hungry. I'll go over to the Magic Box, get some pizza or donuts there. Yes, plan. Wanted to go there all along, has nothing to do with the fact that I may meet Spike there. No. Patrol is an everyday duty. Evil has no holiday.

As soon as I am on the threshold of the Magic Box I can hear him.

"Oi bloody watcher, gimme some blood, told you what I know bout the Lre'shal!"

For the first time I can't see something annoying in Spike, he is practically begging for food!

I slam the door shut loudly, and it's enough to distract the watcher so Spike can grab the blood bag.

"Oh look who was fired again!" Buffy exclaims and I'd have given her a dark look if I wasn't so surprised by the flicker of interest, concern? in Spike's eyes. Maybe...

 

Spike's Point of View

Fuck you Rupert! Show a bit of empathy would you? I didn't kill your lot when I was able to, even helped you kill Angelus and what do I get?
I am treated like the crippled pet nobody wants and poufy-hair gets the niceties! It's not fucking fair.

"Oi, bloody watcher, gimme some blood, told you what I know 'bout the Lre'shal!"
I am hungry and if you don't give me blood soon the pain in my tummy will overwhelm the pain the chip inflicts and I'll rip your throat open and drink you down!

He is here.

I hear his heartbeat speed up as soon as he is through the door.
I feel his eyes on me but I refrain from looking at him. He slams the door, don't think on purpose, at least the watcher is not paying attention and I can grab the two blood bags from him.

Slayer makes a comment 'bout the boy being fired again. Fuck, really? I look over, sniff the air sharply and no, anger but not the hopelessness and self-flagellation he usually stinks of when he lost his job again. Our eyes meet very, very briefly and he makes me feel all funny. I have to get out of here.

"Oh no - Xander! What happened this time?" Willow asks him and hugs him, holds him back and I can vanish through the back door. Bloody hell, I forgot it's raining!

I am completely drenched after only a few minutes. Hate the bloody rain. Makes me even colder. Not gonna think about that. Not gonna bow down, submit to Xander Harris just for a bit of body warmth and forgetfulness. Not gonna happen. Right, not gonna happen again.

I drink the blood down right from the plastic bag, cold and disgusting as it is, no way do I go back in there. Don't need their pity, don't need their god damn mockery!

A while later the door opens and the whelp is shoved outside. Great.
"You go patrol.. I'll be with you in a few. Usual route. There won't be much trouble while it rains like this." Slutty says and then closes the door. Boy stands there, staring at his own feet, waiting for .. what? A written invitation?

I turn around and start to go, seconds later I hear him following me. Usual patrol minus banter and cigarettes. What a bloody beautiful night!

 

Third Person's Point of View

Lazily Spike shoves the demon away and to the ground, knowing that it was a quiet peaceful species with no fighting skills at all, he wasn't even in the mood to kill it. No challenge.

Begging the demon inwardly to just stay down, to just run away, Spike slowly turns around to check on the whelp.

Not even a second later, Xander comes flying in his direction, his body slamming into Spike's full force, takes them both down to the ground. Spike's back connects hard with the muddy cemetery ground, Xander's body falling onto his slender frame, pushing all the unnecessary air out of the vampire.

With a furious roar another demon jumps over their tangled bodies and rushes to the demon that's still on the ground. The bigger furious demon needs a few tries to grab the smaller one, to help him off the slick floor with his horned hands and then they are both running, getting away from the hunters.

"Parental feelings among demons?" Xander asks, looking down directly into Spike's wide blue eyes. Rain is running down Xander's face, leaking from his chin and nose and out of his hair on Spike's skin. Xander is in the adrenaline kick that comes after avoiding something bad, nothing matters and everything is alright as long as the bad thing was avoided. His eyes sparkle and shine with happiness, relief and ...more?

"Weren't Daddy and daughter those two." Spike says and Xander frowns. "No?", he asks while he stares fascinated at his hand which is cupping Spike's head, which's fingers are combing through wet un-gelled locks and which's thumb is sliding up and down the vamp's sharp cheekbone.

"Mates." Spike whispers and tries to look away from Xander's brown eyes which so intently stare into his now. "Lovers. One protecting the other."

Lovers. Xander rolls the word over and over in his head before he whispers it, warm breath puffing against Spike's lips. "Lovers." Offer and confession all in one and all Spike has to do is to close the distance between their lips. It's already less than half an inch but it seems too difficult a task to do.

Xander frowns down at Spike again, wondering what makes the vamp tremble in fear. What is making Spike's eyes wide, like those of an anime character? What gives them this scared expression? But the hardness against his is enough of a yes, Xander decides and leans down further, touching Spike's lips with his, at the same time Spike's fist connects with his jaw and makes him fall to the side.

Spike screams in pain from the chip's reaction and Xander's innards clench in sympathy and from received rejection - a much worse pain than the one that makes his chin throb.

Underlying all is the sound of laughter - nasty and loud and female.
The slayer, under an umbrella, that of course matches her shoes or purse or something.

Spike gives Buffy a dark look, nearly as dark as the one Xander receives and then he stomps off, tumbling slowly and insecurely on his feet and directly in the arms of five fledgelings. Sloppily he defends himself until those newly risen mud leaking wannabe vampires recognize the slayer who breaks in a run, refusing to get anywhere near them.

Xander stakes the vamp that suddenly appears behind Spike, who seems to be unaware, and the chip must be screwing big time with Spike's head. He grabs the vamp on the arm and wrenches him around.

Spike's face is wet like Xander's, rivers of rain running down his skin and, just for a second, Xander imagines them to be tears like those that mingle with the rain streaming down his cheeks.

„You’ll get yourself killed like this!“ Xander hisses at Spike.

“You care? Why's that, Harris?” Spike spits back. “Want another go?”

Without saying anything Xander turns around. He moves away quickly, feet stomping and hands fisted in his pockets, concentrating only on putting some distance between himself and the vampire.

“Running away is what you’re good at!” Spike yells after him even though he knows that it’s a complete lie, but he wants some reaction at least.

When Xander hear the false accusation he stops, rooted to the ground, nearly gasping for breath to get over the sharp pain in his chest. Without turning around he says with a steady voice: “I am not the coward here.”

Spike feels as if the world is suddenly closing in on him, not leaving enough room for him to think and he feels trapped, trapped, trapped.

Xander’s words are harsh but right this one time and all he wants to do is run and hide somewhere from himself. The sharp tongue of his that can’t stop telling the truth to anyone around him is as ruthless to himself. Not that he would admit that Harris is right. Not out loud anyway.

He swallows and looks up, the youth is gone and he feels left, left, left back. Again.
Nothing new, but you never get used to it. No matter how often you practise it.

And if his eyes burn, that's just from the rain that washes down the hair gel and makes it leak into his eyes.

 

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